When one chapter end, another chapter begins...

It has been a smooth journey so far from in-relationship to singlehood, recuperating and freedom (to do what i can't do when i'm attached). With more time for myself, i wanted to concentrate more on my ministry, especially my CG.

By occupy myself with many activities, times just passes so fast...1 week, then 3 weeks, then 1 month....

During these times...

i started to develop a close friendship with BK. I've shared with him what happen to me and S, the reason behind the breakup, life after the breakup and so on. Gradually, both of us begin to communicate more often and exchanging emails and sms every alternate days. Recently, we started to spend more time with each others, went for movies, have dinner after work.

At first, i didn't sense anything special until few weeks ago, i find his care toward me is more than just a friend's concern. He begins to share with me his lifestyle, his personal preferences, and everythings a guy will share with someone he likes.

I'm curious and wanted to ask him, but too shy to do so.

It was at the moment, when both of us chatting during a retreat, He told me he likes me. I was stunned and speechless. So surprise that i cannot think of any words to response.
After a long pause, i told him "I'm not ready yet, can wait until next year?"...later, he reply me "I can wait"

I thank God for the wonderful blessing. I'm still praying whether BK is the right one or not. Is he the one God plan for me? Am i prepare to start a new relationship yet? Is his feeling towards me is true? There are so many doubts and blank, blank, blank...

Although there is chemistry between both of us, but it will not be the reason to get into this relationship. Maybe it can, but not in God's perspective. In everything, God's confirmation and peace are more important than just feeling alone. I pray, not only pray, seek God with all my heart, all my mind and all my soul. So i can be still to listen to His voice.

I want to take it slow and wait upon God's timing.