One year anniversary

13rd of December was our one year anniversary. It nice of him to remember it and send me a message. Can't imagine that we been together for a year already. Time flies.

In this one year, we been through so much as a couple. We discovered each other uniqueness, goodness and weaknesses. Some are sweet and some are not. No doubt, every relationship do have its up and down and we are not exceptional. Most important, we discussed about it and try to change for a better. We are still learning and many more to discover about each other.

BK make an effort to come over to butterworth to have dinner with me. So, we went to nearby Japanese restaurant "shinjuku" to have a simple celebration. A nice and cosy dinner. (too bad, i didn't bring camera with me so no photo to show)

Thank you,dear. I hope we will celebrate more anniversaries in years to come.

Happy 1st Anniversary and love you (very much)!!!

Shall remains silent

This is the day where i shall remains silent...

I was very sad as BK attitude to me no longer caring as it used to be.

Just like what happened yesterday, he left after service without telling me that he going home.
What if, i waited for him to have lunch together. At least a call/sms saying he tired and wanted
to go home to rest. Hence, It will make the situation better.

At that moment, I felt so unappreciative as his girlfriend. I was very angry at him. I cry
in the car on the way to airport to send Alex and Elayne off to Melbourne. I cannot think logically.
I know the more i think of the situation, the more angry i will be.

After sending Alex & Elayne off, i went to Beverly place to share with her. I need to speak out, release
my frustration. Sometimes, another person opinion will be beneficial and indeed it helped.   

After shared with Beverly, i felt better and emotionally calmed. Although I'm not yet fully forgive BK. At this times,
i need to remains silent and seek God for direction and wisdom on how to be in this relationship.

I still cannot understand BK expectation of having a girlfriend that is very independents.
If a girl is independents and able to handle everything by herself, she don't need a bf or husband. He gives me an opinion that he don't want to take responsibility.

Show me your ways, O Lord, teach me your paths; guide me in your truths and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.Psalm 25:4-5

sunday tea time, carrot cake...

It was a very lazy Sunday. Since it been awhile i didn't do baking so decide to bake a cake. Look into the net for nice and easy cake recipe to try on. There's a pack of carrot lying in my fridge for weeks already. Not wanting it to end up in rubbish bin, must as well make something out of it...CARROT CAKE!!

Spend an hour in the kitchen mixing and whipping...the result, a delicious and moist carrot cake. Taste tested by my only food critic "my little brother" and it passed. Quite satisfied yet another succeed baking.  














Here is the recipe...took from deliciousasianfood.com. Make a slight modification to omit the cinnamon and nutmeg powder because i don't like the taste of it. Here is the my version:

Ingredients
240 grammes carrots (grated)
120 grammes pineapples (tinned, drained and chopped)
60 grammes raisins (lightly chopped)
60 grammes walnuts (chopped coarsely)
240 grammes self-raising flour
1/2 teaspoons baking soda
1/2 teaspoons baking powder
1/2 teaspoons vanilla essence (add to eggs)
3 eggs
210 grammes castor sugar
180 ml olive oil

• Sift the flour with soda and baking powder. Add castor sugar.Mix it well inside a bowl.
• Whisk eggs until frothy in a separate bowl. Add in vanilla essence.
• Pour egg mixture into the flour and stir well using a spatula. 
• Then add grated carrots followed by cooking oil. Add in the chopped pineapples and stir well.
• Then add in the raisins and walnuts.
• Pour mixture into a greased and floured tray and bake in a preheated oven at 170 °C for 45 minutes.

Goodbye DCI, Hello Seagate

Today is my last day in Dynacraft. Another 2 hours, i'm officially ex-DCI employee.

I had worked here for 3 years and learned a lot from it too. The experience and opportunity that i gained here is priceless. The only thing that i will miss is my MIS colleagues. They are the people that can make me laugh even I'm stress out from my work. Beside, they are also my part-timer farmers aka. facebook's farmville buddy. I thanked God for putting me here. Although it is not all sweet and sparkling, i still can say that i enjoy time spending with them. 

It had been a wonderful journey so far. Starting next monday, i'm going to a new place, meeting new people, entering a new environment, graining new experience. As i move on, i prayed that God will bring me to a place whether i can be light and salt to the people around me.

preparing to start a new chapter in my career....

2 Corinthians 4:7

“But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us.” 
     2 Cor. 4:7

V-DAY 2010

This year, V-Day falls on the same day as CNY, moreover it the 1st day of the Lunar New Year
Due to busyness and visiting during CNY, bk and me decide to postpone our V-day to later date.

So, we had it last weekend at The Ship Restaurant@Batu Ferringhi. Before this, bk had asked me where
i would like to had our V-day dinner. Since i have not been to The Ship@Batu Ferringhi, so i picked that one. He made the reservation, which is good as the place was packed to brim. When we arrive, we are assist to our table and i'm quite happy as they seated us near the window which is more privacy.

As we are seated nicely, a waitress came  with a bouquet of flowers. I'm delighted as BK really make an effort to get me the flowers, hence it also my favourite gaberras and it's pink. Not bad for his first time.

Then, We flip through the menu, we ordered escargot for appetizer. As for the main course,
bk had mix grills and I opt for sizzling chicken upon the waitress recommendation. And we both had mix fruit juice. I'm quite satisfy with the foods as well as the place.

Overall, we had a wonderful time and a "romantic" dinner together.

Temptation

1 Corinthians 10:11-13

¹¹These things happened to them as examples and were written down as warnings for us, on whom the fulfillment of the ages has come. ¹²So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don't fall! ¹³No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

Extremely Hot Weekend

It was extremely hot weekend. After church, BK and I decide to spend time at his place. It too hot to go anywhere except the mall. And both of us don't wanna stuck in the jam. So, the best option is to stay at home.

Indeed, it not a bad idea, we chit chat and browse through some photos. It also the first time i have the longest conversation with his mom. Then, when it about time to go for dinner, BK brings me to meet his St. Xavier's buddies Amar, Gary and Edmund. We wanted to go for western foods at Fettes park but it's not opened.

So, we end up go to the temple's western food @Mount Erskine. There's huge crowd, maybe due to the one at fettes park closed. We waited for 1 hour to get our foods served. The place is hot and everyone was sweating.

That how we spend our day dating at his place. It was good, we can spend quality time together. It good to meet some of his good friends.

Colossians 1:17

Inspiration verse.....

He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together - Colossians 1:17

Came across this verse when i read a devotion from Proverbs 31 Devotional. Indeed it encouraged me in every aspect of my life. His grace had been sustaining me for the past few months, from the moment i got to know my dad going to remarriage and my breakup with S. Everything seem to fall apart. Through and through, He had been my strength and courage to go by each day knowing that there is someone i can hold on and He is JESUS.

He knows and already determine ahead all the things that happen in my life yesterday, today and future. And every situation are interconnected and it happen for a reason. In the midst of my situation, i might not able to see the bigger picture but at the end, i can see that it happened so that i can grow stronger and my faith is strengthen. When I'm weak, He is strong. When I'm poor, He is rich.

Thank You Lord for everything. I pray that 2010 will be a year that i can shine brighter for You.

Shop @Kitschen

Suppose to have CG last tuesday, but last minute had to cancel due to Transform to Impact conference held this coming weekend. All the CGies going to meet in church on Friday. At the same time, our cg venue .aka WK's place not available.

So, i decide to go to QBay to have some window shopping. Wanted to get a waist belt for my dinner dress. After browsing from shop to shop, can't find anything that i wanted. Then, i come across "Kitschen". Hhhmmm....new shop!!! Heard of it, it the same company brand as Niichi. For us ladies, new shop means more places to shop for clothes.

The clothes they offer there are quite nice and trendy. Most of all, they have size ranging form XS to XL, suitable for everyone especially small size type like me. The pricing there are mid-range, a bit more pricey compare to niichi. Anyway, they offer better quality. I don't mind paying a bit more and get a better quality clothes.

Manage to pick few dresses to try on and it fit nicely. After a several round of fitting, manage to get 3 dresses. There goes my quota for the next few months. Since CNY coming soon, it will be my CNY clothes. Definitely, will come back to this shop again for my next shopping spree.

Lunch with the Siu's

The Siu's was back with their daughter esrene. Due to esrene was down with HFMD (Hand Foot Mouth Disease), we didn't manage to meet up with them. They were home quarantine for 4 days until esrene is fully recover. So, yesterday we manage to organized a lunch gathering with the T & A, M & J, YS & CM, J & M, Alex, Jess and Andrew. It turned out to be a reunion lunch for South 2 & South 5 (the good 'ol days)

We went to OFA and little that i know, they changed their management already. The menu seem to be slightly different but their tomyam fried rice still very delicious. We had a fun time catching up with each others and baby shanna and caris got a chance to play with esrene. Baby clement too young (less than 2 months old) to play with them.

Time flies, after 3 years, so much had changed. Some of us already marriage and have their own family. Wonder what it will be like in another 3 years time. Will we able to have this kinda gathering again?!

After lunch, BK and I went to meet up with T & A to officially informed them about our relationship. While there, BK and I was asked what is the concrete plan we have for our relationship. The first question T asked us was "When we plan to get marriage?". Both of us was stunt. We never discuss or even thought about it before. So, when both of us on the phone at night, we had a conversation on this very question and shared what is our expectation and milestones for our relationship. We gives ourselves this coming 3 months to know each others more and come back again to see how's our progress.

We really need to pray together as a couple. Sometimes, i have this attitude of wanting to do this and that, but always end up without executing it. Thought only, No Action!!


Lord Jesus, thank you for the wonderful opportunity and your blessings. Thanks you for the provision and joy you have pour into my life in 2009. I believes everything happened for a reason. As I enter into the new year 2010, it will be a new beginning for my family, my spiritual life and my relationship. Thank you for bringing BK into my life. I uphold our relationship into your gracious hands as well as all our plans. Help us and guide us as BK and I walk this very new year together as a couple. Let us be a blessing to those around us especially the cgies. May our strengths and our weaknesses compliment each others. Remind us always we need to come together to pray and seek you in our relationship. Amen

01.01.10

A new year, a new beginning.

First day of 2010....it was a day well spend with my dear BK. After a hectic weekend on my dad's wedding, finally had a relaxing weekend to myself. To make it more memorable, i'm going out with BK.  

we wanted to watch Avatar 3D, but was sold out 2 days before the show....it was a hit movie of the year...the tickets are selling like hot cake especially the 3D version. Anyway, we still went for movie, watching "Alvin and the chipmunks". BK brought the ticket online and this time we go for twin seat, first time for BK.

After movie, we went window shopping as BK wants to buy shoe. We walk around gurney but didn't find anything that BK wanted. Then, we down to basement area to get some drink, so coincidence, we bump into Alan. We didn't call him, we just walk pass him and hopefully he didn't see us. Oops!! Beside Alan, we also bump into BK's colleagues.

Then, we adjourned to island plaza, hoping that metrojaya will have something BK looking for. But still, the choices there are limited. We end up not buying anything there.While there, we met Cheryl's parent. To my surprise, BK knew Cheryl's mum, they are colleague (such a small world). It was nice to see them after so long. I think i last seen them was before i went to Melbourne which is 6 years back. This shows that i didn't keep in touch with cheryl for such a long time. Have to catch up with my college mates. Have to plan for a reunion with them.

When we left island plaza, it was still very early for dinner. So, BK brings me back to his place to meet his parent. This is the first time i meet his parent officially as his girlfriend. A bit "kang cheong". Wanted to give my best and the best way is to be myself. It went well, his parent was very friendly and nice. His brother got a golden retriever and it is super huge. Met his brother, Boon Wei as well. We spent time at his place, browsing his UK's photos until CK call us for dinner. 

CK is here in penang and we went to "cherry sweet" for thai food. Nice place, delicious food and reasonable price also. CK paid the bill first and BK pay him our shared. Immediately, MM asked BK, "why you paying for Jxxx?". CK added, "So it's official or not official?". BK just reply with laughter "hahaha!!"

Our relationship becoming very obvious now especially to those around us, our cgies.  

1 Step @ A Time

On 13-December-2009, we are officially together.

It just a normal conversation in the car, which started with i asked him how do i introduce him to my relatives on my dad pre-wedding dinner. Do i intro him as my "boyfriend"?? He asked me back whether i'm ready yet to go ahead. I told him "Yes". Then, he hold my hand. So, i'm consider attached now, then...

According to him, it kinda fast for me to go into a new relationship right now. So, do i need to reconsider again my answer of "Yes"!?!?!

See how's thing goes...take each steps at a time..small steps. No rush...enjoy the journey. 

Sometimes when you least expected..LOVE HAPPENS

Everyday is a surprise when you least expected it. Life can be beautiful when you treat it as it is new every morning. God has been good and He always will.

It was such a sweet feeling knowing that there is someone who care alot about you. Without failed, his sms/emails had been brightening my days. I just hope that he will continue doing it in spite of his busyness in office.

We been going out almost every weekend, either for movies or just a simple lunch. Until last weekend, i decide to tell him that it good that you ask permission from my dad first before we steps further. I do share with him that i'm looking for someone to settle down, a long term relationship. Since it was his 1st, better make our focus sync before we take another step. He told me he also not looking for short-term relationship.
He asked me whether i still need more time, i told him that "i'm ready". So,since he fetching me back home, we decide to meet my dad for dinner and he will ask for permission & blessing from my dad. Great!!

I really very happy that he take the initiative to do it. Such a gentleman!! That one of the reason that make me fall for him.

One of the conversation we had in the car, after the movie "LOVE HAPPENS"...

me: Thanks for fetching me back, though it very far for you. You can just drop me off at jetty. 

bk:  I'm not going to drop you at jetty, not a chance!!
me: Thank you.   *so touch* (^.^)

Finally, meet the parent session. We reach home, my dad was waiting for us and we go for dinner.
After dinner, i asked him again, "if you're not yet ready and not comfortable to ask my dad, you still can do it later" He replyed back, "It's a good opportunity to ask now". He go ahead as plan and asked my dad. Yeah, my dad give us the blessing but with a short interview with him. Anyway, it went well.

More surprises to come, dad invite BK for his pre-wedding dinner at my house. Time to meet the relatives, have to keep on praying!

D.E.C.E.M.B.E.R

December always be a month fills with excitement, expectation and of course busyness. This year is no difference.

Busyness...
On 27th Dec, my dad's going to remarriage during the Christmas weekend. Glad that my dad found a companionship, at least someone to accompany him during his old ages. Hence, i will be very busy for the coming next 3 weeks. With so many preparation to do, to come up with a slide show for church ceremony, reception table seating list, etc,etc,etc...and the list goes on.


Expectation....
December also a month which we all will get our bonuses and hopefully an increments. It been 2 years since my last increment. Due to the economy downturn last year, our increment was freeze. Waiting earnestly for it.


Excitement...
Most important, December also a month to celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ. All christians will celebrate CHRIST-MAS together, declaring to the world our Saviour was born to brings HOPE, JOY and PEACE to this world. Many people still think Christmas is about Santa, Presents, Reindeers, which is a gimmick the media trying to use. Let's us not forget the very true meaning of CHRISTMAS, celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ, my Lord and my Saviour. Let His Glory and L♥VE fills the whole earth this season....

Movie Day

It Wednesday, it's movie day!!

Going to watch Planet 51 this evening. Wonder what the show is all about...will it be similar to my favourite "Shrek".

Anyway, looking forward to have a great time with the cgies :D

Three days HOliday

Day One

First day of holiday. Went to Qbay for shopping. Bro wanted to buy shirts for Dad's wedding ceremony. Since, there is BIG SALE, must as well take advantage of it and get some bargains. Had lunch @Azuma, utilizing my Azuma VIP card with 10% discount on non-promotional items only. The total bill come up to 90++. Dad treat!!

After lunch, we went home and spend the whole afternoon laying around, watching astro and dinner was at home. Such a boring day!! Not productive at all...

Day Two

Slept until my dad wake me up as the temporary maid came over to clean the house. Though of sleeping until lunch time. What to do...wake up and supervise the maid to clean & tidy the house.

I was on duty this weekend, so going early to church for practice, together with my bro. Both of us drove one car and Dad will be driving my car to fetch my aunt to go back to her daughter's place and straight to church. After service, left my car in church and we all go back in one car.

Day Three

Exciting day, pack with lunch, movie and dinner appointment. Was in church for duty in the morning. BK said he will come over AV room to help me on video control and he did but a little bit late....

After service, looking for cg members to go lunch with. None of my CGies are around and end up going lunch with BK only. Went to New World Park and met Darrell together with Selene and one of her friend. BK and me join in. We chitchat, asking how's everyone doing. Suddenly, Selene asked BK, whether he got gf or not. Straight away, BK answered "No".

Later in the car..., BK asked me what i think of Selene's question.

Me: What question?? *still blur*
BK: Selene's question on whether i have gf or not?!?!
Me: Oh, that one. You said "NO" already!!
BK: Should have said "Working On It"
Me: *laughs*

I find our relationship is getting weird though. Both of us knew we like each others but can't take a step further. Funny!!

After lunch, BK and me went to 1-Stop as he wants to check out the Popular SALE but end up not buying anything there. Then, we went to gurney for our movie "2012". The cineplex was packed and there is long queue at the F&B counters. We waited about 20min to buy our drinks. Really glad that BK brought the tickets the day before. He's utilizing his birthday treat, free movie ticket. The movie duration was 245 hours, such a draggy movie. Half way through, i got boring already. Find the movie is so-so only. Not to my expectation.

Then, We went to pulau tikus market for lok-lok. After that, i want to have dessert, so BK bring me to Crepe Cottage @Gurney which is owned by his friend's aunty. Before we decide on this place, BK was considering, if he bring me there, means that his friends will knows about us. After a mutual agreement, we went ahead...

We reached there and BK ordered Mango Ice creme pancake...called "MANGO CUP". It was delicious, good choice. ~Yum!~Yum!

To my relieve, his friend was not around. At first, bit worried, as it was my first time meet his friend. After dessert, he send me back to pick up my car and we went home.

Does this consider a date? Anyway, had a good time with him. :D

When one chapter end, another chapter begins...

It has been a smooth journey so far from in-relationship to singlehood, recuperating and freedom (to do what i can't do when i'm attached). With more time for myself, i wanted to concentrate more on my ministry, especially my CG.

By occupy myself with many activities, times just passes so fast...1 week, then 3 weeks, then 1 month....

During these times...

i started to develop a close friendship with BK. I've shared with him what happen to me and S, the reason behind the breakup, life after the breakup and so on. Gradually, both of us begin to communicate more often and exchanging emails and sms every alternate days. Recently, we started to spend more time with each others, went for movies, have dinner after work.

At first, i didn't sense anything special until few weeks ago, i find his care toward me is more than just a friend's concern. He begins to share with me his lifestyle, his personal preferences, and everythings a guy will share with someone he likes.

I'm curious and wanted to ask him, but too shy to do so.

It was at the moment, when both of us chatting during a retreat, He told me he likes me. I was stunned and speechless. So surprise that i cannot think of any words to response.
After a long pause, i told him "I'm not ready yet, can wait until next year?"...later, he reply me "I can wait"

I thank God for the wonderful blessing. I'm still praying whether BK is the right one or not. Is he the one God plan for me? Am i prepare to start a new relationship yet? Is his feeling towards me is true? There are so many doubts and blank, blank, blank...

Although there is chemistry between both of us, but it will not be the reason to get into this relationship. Maybe it can, but not in God's perspective. In everything, God's confirmation and peace are more important than just feeling alone. I pray, not only pray, seek God with all my heart, all my mind and all my soul. So i can be still to listen to His voice.

I want to take it slow and wait upon God's timing.

It's ended...

Hence, i decided to tell S that i'm not going to KL. That means we ended our relationship of 4 years. Although i told him i wanted to have 3 months of cooling period and let him know my decision in December. Somehow, after one and half months down the road, i finally made-up my mind and give him my final answer. He was calm when i wrote to him in msn and replied me back with "I expected it". Seem that he also prepared.

It have been a bitter less separation(as on my side) and both of us still able to remain as friends. That the part which i felt bit relieved that this separation will not be the last time i see/chat with him.

These 4 years with him have been a roller-coaster ride. We been through up and down together, learning to respect and support each others in the process. I do cherish the time we spend with each others. Thank you for his comfort and care for me during my most saddest moments as well as happier ones.

Although our relationship ended but i do hope that he will continue to do what God have called him upon, which i think he will. I know he will do greater things for God and go as far as the Lord brings him.

Will continue to keep you in prayer!!

Overwhelmed !

I'm overwhelmed...
By His grace & mercy,

I'm overwhelmed...
By His timely blessing,

I'm overwhelmed...
By His answered prayer,

I'm overwhelmed...
By His wonderful presence,

I'm overwhelmed...
By His everylasting LOVE,
A LoVE that surpasses all understandings...